Find Your Center
From time to time, when tensions are high or I can sense a pervading uneasy energy, I do a little meditative exercise. Usually, it is a visualization or relaxation ritual; something easy to refocus my mind.
As exam time draws near, I will begin to show you what I do, and also some more advanced techniques for meditation and you can use it however you see fit.
So, in preparation for that, this week's blog will have you contemplating your "happy place" either real or metaphorical or imaginary. Please answer each of the following questions, using detailed, descriptive imagery-laden diction.
Where do you like to go to escape from the pressures of your life? (It doesn't have to be a real place). Why THAT place?
What is your best childhood memory? Describe it in detail.
Where and when do you feel your absolute best? Why?
What is the most soothing sound you can imagine?
Which colors affect your mood the most? How do those colors affect it?
When during the day do you feel the most at ease? Why? What is it about that time of day that provides comfort?
As exam time draws near, I will begin to show you what I do, and also some more advanced techniques for meditation and you can use it however you see fit.
So, in preparation for that, this week's blog will have you contemplating your "happy place" either real or metaphorical or imaginary. Please answer each of the following questions, using detailed, descriptive imagery-laden diction.
Where do you like to go to escape from the pressures of your life? (It doesn't have to be a real place). Why THAT place?
What is your best childhood memory? Describe it in detail.
Where and when do you feel your absolute best? Why?
What is the most soothing sound you can imagine?
Which colors affect your mood the most? How do those colors affect it?
When during the day do you feel the most at ease? Why? What is it about that time of day that provides comfort?
Whenever things get rough in life, my happy place is any place I’m at with my friends. Whether that be over their house, or driving around with them, for when I’m with my friends life seems simpler, and more happier than it usually is. My best childhood memory is of my dad and I, walking around Philadelphia with my uncle, checking out the museums, and me on his shoulders as we walked into a McDonald’s, I don't remember much, but how nice the weather was, how it was the first time I saw McDonald’s with two floors, and how happy I was to be with my father. I feel my absolute best when I’ve completed everything I have to do, when I’ve acted responsibly, and did the mature things I should be doing in life, to get myself in track, there are multiple places I feel the best. Anywhere in with my friends, Bunje’'s room, my bedroom, my uncle's house. Most soothing sounds are those from a piano, when listening with earbuds sounds from a piano in any song make it better.
ReplyDeleteI can the color blue, is a calming color for me, everything feels whole and correct when I see the color blue, yellow i get less happy about, simply because it’s reminds me of bee’s and I don’t like bees. During the nightI’m most at ease. Something about the sky being dark, with only the moon shining, and all the fun emotions that come with the night time, make it so relaxing, combining the night time with the ocean is even more calming.
The pressures of life are hard to avoid. Generally to find some kind of peace, I go outside if I can. I used to just go up to my room and watch videos but It doesn’t give me any kind of peace anymore. I go outside to mimick the feeling I get when I go to this camp in the summer. Spruce Lake is a retreat where I feel ultimate tranquility. Just thinking about waking up at 7 and sitting out on a balcony that over looks mountain with a cup of crappy coffee. Just the overwhelming feeling of calm as the rain from the night drips from the roof. The feeling of warmth from the coffee against cold mountain air. Spruce Lake to me is definition of peace, every night the air smells like campfire and the sky is lit by stars. The 9pm wagon rides into the wilderness after getting icecream from the sweet snackshop. I’ve been going to Spruce Lake for my whole life it’s littered with family friends and lovely Christian people and games. As you would guess my favorite childhood memories are from Spruce Lake. Waking up at 7 am every morning and breathing in the warm lodge air. Walking into the main area and heading downstairs to get breakfast. One memory I hold really close to my heart is from a few years ago. Sitting in a rocking chair with my best friend looking to an orange sunset. Just talking about life and where we are and our faith. Just an absolute outpour of emotions. It was the day I knew this person was going to be my friend for life. Another memory is when I was playing a game called “persecution”, which mimics what some christians go through on a daily basis in different countries. I was at a little building with my friends and our role was a safe house, we would help people get around guards. I just remember laughing all night and having issues being silent. And ending the night by walking back with a guard who I recognized as an old friend. Once again I feel my best when I’m at Spruce Lake. It’s almost as if the real world doesn’t exist there. As a person with anxiety and other issues it was almost as if none of that exist there. I never have issues sleeping I never have issues getting up. I’ve never sat in up in the morning contiplating my existence and why I am here. Everyone there is just so full of love and is just so happy. The most soothing sound I can think of comes straight from none other than Spruce and also the beach. As I talked about before Spruce lake has a balcony that over looks Spruce Mountian and a pond. I remember waking up and getting coffee and going out on the balcony. It had just rained the night before and the sky was foggy and peaceful. The birds were awake and talking. Laying back in a rock chair with my eyes closed listening to the rain drops and distant music from the church and birds singing along, while breathing in mountain air. The beach carries so many melodious tunes. The waves crashing against the thin sand while the seagulls yell at a big family of loud adults and children. The sounds of near by volleyball players running around and bumping the ball. I think blue and green effect my mood for reasons being blue reminds me of the ocean. It makes me feel peaceful sometimes and reminds of blueberries, and also waterfalls. Green because it reminds me trees and the mountains.I feel the most at ease right before I leave school and also at around 4 o clock. When my body realizes I’m going home and free of school anxiety and pretending to be in a good mood. 4 o’clock because its before the time I start my homework. My mood tends to shift to being emotional and stressed at around 6 so anytime before that is when I feel most at ease. Or anytime early in the morning when I don’t have school at around 7-8 am.
ReplyDeleteWhenever I'm wanting to escape pressure or stress and just want to use my mind, it's never really a certain place. It's more like it's certain people: certain friends, my boyfriend, my old dog, favorite characters from movies, shows, and books. I choose those people and imagine happy scenarios with them in my mind, and that makes me happy and relieves me from stress temperarily. I choose those speicfic people because they make me happy and make my life worth living. Needless to say, I'd have no reason for living without any of them. I have a few happy childhood memories, but I can't exactly recall a favorite childhood memory. Possibley the ones with my best friend Angelina? They're all a bit fuzzy. I do remember when we were in 4th grade, we were temperarily obsessed with the lyrics, "Shake your groove thing." But, as children we heard, "Shake your bootay." So in class, we'd be working in our math books side-by-side and draw little butts on our pages and snicker at them because it was our little secret code for "Shake your bootay." And then when we heard what the lyrics really were, we were so dumbfounded by it. Or when we would always hang out in my backyard in Virginia, we'd swing on the home-made swing my dad made from a plastic chair and sing songs, or we'd pretend to be super star performers at a concert. I think I'm at my best when I get inspired to paint or draw something, but I'm not sure what my best really is. It's usually when I'm looking at my favorite artists' artwork. For me, the most soothing sound is my boyfriend's voice, honestly. Dark colors typically make me feel gloomy, that's why I always try my best to avoid wearing anything dark. I feel comfort around night time, because that's usually when I'm able to be by myself for a little bit.
ReplyDeleteWhen I need to escape some pressure I usually go to the gym or my sister’s room. At the gym I can get out my frustration because I like wrestling and I’m decent enough to hold my own and stuff. It makes me feel like I can do something right. When I go to my sisters room it’s usually because the gym is closed and /or something there is the issue. Sometimes everything is completely overwhelming so I sit in her room and watch the TV or play games and it’s almost like time doesn’t exist because it’s always dark in there, but I’m also unaware of everything I need to do in some wacky time constraint. My best childhood memory would have to be going to my poppop’s house. I honestly don’t remember leaving my house otherwise. I just remember going to eat food and play in the pool with the dog. Hotdogs and hamburgers, sometimes dessert, the smell of the grill was smoky. I was happy and carefree. I had no responsibility other than being happy. I remember his laugh and my family would act like a family. I don’t think we ever argued at his house. Um, I remember he showed us the salamanders with bright tails, he taught me chess, which I forget now, I think he was the best part of my life and I miss him greatly. I feel my best when I’ve done good at practice or at a competition. Good grades and school does nothing for me. I feel good when I use physical skills or do hands on things and wrestling makes me feel the best. The most soothing sound is crackling fire, rain, or humming. Humming in a soft tune while being held or getting my hair rubbed through is insanely soothing to me. I think yellow makes me happy and deep blues make me calm, but I don’t think other colors affect me otherwise. I feel the most comfort early in the morning like 7 am on a Sunday is really comforting to me. I don’t feel pressured to do anything or be perfect or talk when I don’t feel like it. There is absolutely no pressure I can make food and hang out with my dogs. That is my favorite time. No pressure to be anything besides myself.
ReplyDeleteI don’t really have a happy place. That’s not something I’ve ever considered needing or thought of. When I get stressed out I kinda just deal with it or face it. I guess the closest thing to a happy place is just me driving around aimlessly alone blasting music. It just feels freeing and it reminds me a sense of independence and that I don’t need anyone. I have many childhood memories that I love and remember randomly at times but for the sake of me going to sleep I will choose the first one I thought of. It is me the first time (and only time) I went to Disneyland. I am six years old. I am wearing jeans and a white shirt and took off my denim mickey mouse cap that I was wearing all day because the little bead thing at the top hurt my head. My half-brother had come from Peru to come with me and my mom. He is about eleven at the time. It is night time and I am sitting atop my dad’s shoulders which at the time seemed like the highest tower in the world, looking at the iconic castle (you know which one) while it is blasting fireworks so big I can feel it in my heart. I will never forget that feeling. I feel my absolute best in the summer. No school, no stress, being tan, going to the gym, being cut, hanging out with friends. So I guess I feel my absolute best when I am hanging out with friends with a pump on a summer evening. I added having a pump because when you leave the gym and have a pump you feel like a god. Like fuckin hercules. And summer is just so stress free because there is no stress that you have to bring home unlike schoolwork. The sound of rain and thunder soothes me the most. Like a downpour I can clearly hear from inside my room. It’s just so soothing and thunder just adds to it. Sometimes when its raining I open the window beside my bed and fall asleep listening, smelling the rain and it’s the best thing ever. Orange affects my mood the most. Not like actual orange but orange sunlight. When it’s near sunset and the clouds are overhead turning the sky into a pink and orange painting. I like how it feels on my skin and how it makes everything look better. I even set my phone to have night-mode on 24/7 because I like the way it makes the screen a little more orange and softer. I also like early in the morning whenever the sun shines through the windows just right and illuminates your whole house with orange and gold. I don’t really have a time of day that makes me feel the most at ease. My day just depends on the level of stress or happiness going on at the moment and kindof just stays consistent throughout the day unless I’m distracted by something funny or exercise.
ReplyDeleteWhen life gets rough and my heart/mind becomes a little too heavy, I turn to the positive, uplifting sayings/quotes/reminders I keep in my phone. This is the “place” I go to because it helps me escape from my head, the place I hate to be in. When I have a bad day and I want to escape from the world for a little bit I also like to drive, ironically. It doesn’t really matter where I’m going, driving keeps me distracted from what was taking up my mind before.
DeleteGrowing up, I lived with both my mom and my dad, and my sister in a big house in Hamilton Pointe. To the left of my house was Max’s house, to the right was Leah’s house, and then a few houses down was Ashley and Katie’s house as well as Angie’s house. These were my first friends. We would all meet up on our bikes, scooters, and skateboards and spend the entire day outside until it started to get dark, and our parents made us come inside. We’d all go to one of our houses for lunch/dinner (our parents would take turns on who was cooking that day), and that is what my childhood memories are filled with. Chalk masterpieces covering the sidewalks and the streets, racing the crabs being cooked for dinner (my dad being the ref), ice cream truck chases, trips to the park and the basketball court, hide and seek, tag, hikes to our magic treehouse in the middle of the woods, and so many more memories are what make up my childhood. A few years after these memories were made, life hit us. We started wondering why one of our parents were no longer coming home from work when they said they would, and following that, our time together was reduced because at least one of us was always at the other parent’s house far away. Life became hard to understand at a young age for us. Max is now a sophomore at ACIT, Leah is a junior at Mainland, Ashley is a senior at Cedar Creek, Katie is a sophomore at Oakcrest, and Angie is a senior at ACIT. We all stay in contact with each other and I think it’s pretty cool.
I feel my absolute best when I get out of the shower. That may sound weird but when I step out of the shower, I’m fresh and clean and I feel flat out amazing. My hair is soft, my face is soft, it’s such a great feeling.
Listening to acoustic versions of songs is soothing, to me. They’re usually so much prettier than their regular versions and they’re so underrated.
The color yellow makes me happy. It’s such a happy color, and the sun is yellow, and the sun makes me happy, which makes yellow a happy color :) I guess the color black affects my mood in a somewhat negative way for the reason that, when I wear black, I feel mean. It changes my personality almost. Especially when I wear eyeliner… I feel like a whole bitch.
As stated before, I feel the most at ease whenever I’m fresh out of the shower, all clean. I usually shower in both the morning and at night (that’s probably really bad for my skin and my hair), but waking up and showering is so refreshing, whether I’m going to school or just chilling at home. After getting out of the shower at night and brushing my teeth, completing my face routine, putting leave in conditioner in my hair and combing it, etc, I feel so fresh. Laying in my comfy ass bed after a shower is a GREAT feeling too.
When I want to get away from all the stress in my life i like to go in my room. My room is my “happy place” because it is a place that I can be myself and let myself go. I can cry, laugh, yell, etc in my room knowing that nobody will see me nor judge me. In my opinion my bed is the comfiest thing in the world, so when I’m feeling stressed I can lay down and sink into it with my covers pulled up to my head and a million pillows surrounding me. I close my eyes and relax my body ready to sleep knowing I have 8 hours to myself and a stress free life.
ReplyDeleteI can’t think of a specific childhood memory, but when I think of all the summers at camp blue star with my friends my face immediately lights up and I tend to let out a laugh. Camp blue star is where I spent my summers with my friends all the way up to i forget what grade but IT WAS A LONG ASS TIME! We have so many goofy memories and jokes that only we can understand and relate to which is crazy. In fact we can just crack up at any time of day and cry of laughter. For example one day when we were playing gaga Maryam though it was a good idea to climb over the wall. She did that and fell on the ground and that was the funniest thing ever!! Anyways whenever I think of a camp memory I instanting become happy.
I feel my best in the summer time obviously because I don’t have to stress about school work. I am happy, tan, pimple free, and making money with my friends. What more can I ask for! I feel so mature in the summer because I’m out of my house more and outside doing adventurous things. Summer is just overall a great time to be alive and living everyday like it’s your last with temperatures above 70*.
When I get my eyebrows done the place I go to always plays the sounds of waves crashing and I think that’s the most relaxing sound ever. As my eyes close I picture myself on the beach with a little breezy and the sun hitting my back as I lay there and tan listening to the waves crash one by one.
Yellow has been the trending color of 2018 and I dig it. To me a soft yellow brings out happy vibes and reminds me of sunflowers and smiley faces. When I wear or see the color yellow it instantly brightens my mood because the color is genuinely “happy”. I have also been loving the color light blue. It’s soft and reminds me of rainy days which I love, but also reminds me of blue skies. I think it’s such a pretty shade of blue and it makes me feel confident and chill.
I feel most at ease at night because that is when I get my shit together and wine down. I grab a cup of coffee (I know at night drinking coffee don’t judge) put on a face mask and do homework or watch vampire diaries. I’m happy when I know I get to block everything out for 8 hours or so because I’m sleeping so that makes everything less stressful and I know I have everything done for school.
Where I like to go to escape the pressures of my life is I guess in my mind and in my sleep because when I sleep all the worries of whatever is going on in my life go away and I can’t think about them at all, and plus dreams help ease the pressures away and think about other things, but once I wake up I’m like damn this again, it’s was good while it lasted.
ReplyDeleteMy best childhood memory is during the times of when I would go to my best friend's house at the time, he lives in eht and has a huge house, and since I was so little the house was even bigger to me, and he also has a fat ass backyard which has a trampoline, a pool, a playground, and a basketball court, he also had all the video games, and many of his friends lived in that same neighborhood so we would all group up and play together, and have big ass dodgeball tournaments in his basement and just have a good time. So I guess the best memories I had as a child are the memories of me going over to his house and probably when I was 4 living in the city.
I guess on the soccer field since I am there a lot and probably at canal where I play pickup at and see some old faces and sometimes new ones, the reason why is because we just have fun for hours, just playing, cracking jokes, breaking ankles, megging each other and having a good time all together.
The most soothing sound I can imagine is like the beat of a song for me or a whales what you call it bruh the sounds that they make to communicate with each other
The colors that affect my mood the most is blue, and red, blue soothes me down and makes me feel relaxed and tired at times, and red if i’m hungry makes me hungrier.
The time during the day I feel the most at ease is 12-1 o clock on a sunday because it’s a lot of hours until school starts again and it’s quite early in the day to do whatever I want until the next day. The time of day during a school day is 2;30 because school is over duh!!!
There has definitely been a lot of memories that I encountered my life but the ones that stand out the most are those with my mom and dad when I was younger. The first was when my dad and I would get up at 7am every other day, drive to our destination of choice, then spend the whole day walking up and down the boardwalk in either Atlantic City, Ocean City or Wildwood. He would buy me fries, funnel cakes, pizza, ice cream; you name it, I got it. I remember always feeling so special and happy when he would waste hundreds of dollars on me so I could be able to win a stuffed animal or some other prize, we were 100% the dynamic duo of the summer of 2007.
ReplyDeleteI also will never forget how after every doctor’s appointment where I had getting a shot of some sort, my mom would always take me out to eat at a diner or just to take me out for ice cream because I was so good. We still have times like that now but the times when we did this during my childhood are the ones I will clearly remember. Well for starters I can tell you that I feel my absolute worse on school day mornings. My eyes are sleepy as hell and I’m literally being forced to open my eyes. Too lazy to move my body. Still wanted to lay down on my bed and continue sleeping. Hoping to still be inside my warm blanket. Always regret myself for not sleeping earlier. It takes more than an hour for me to fall asleep. Not going to lie, but, I feel my best after I hear that bell ring at 2:30 pm every Monday-Friday and get out of a long ass day of school; oh, rain and/or a nice warm shower after a long day makes me feel like a new woman and ABSOLUTELY my best. Simple. The sound of rain and light thunder in the night, has to be the most soothing sound I could ever hear. With all of these crazy storms that have been happening throughout this week, rain is a constant sound that I have been using to fall asleep. Even on a nice, bright, 90 degrees day out, you can still catch me on YouTube searching up some of my favorite soothing songs with rain sounds in the background; like you just don't know how much I love hearing storms, rain, etc. Matter of fact, I just might search up some music with that rain in the background and finish this. Blue is one of my favorite colors. If you were to look in my closet, you will see all shades of blue. Blue is a very calming color. But the various hues of blue affect me differently. For instance, light blue makes me feel friendly and very approachable whereas dark blue feels more reserved and professional. My next favorite color is yellow. This color makes me feel happy and energetic. When I wake up in the morning in a not so good mood, I normally turn to one if these bright colors to give me energy and help me make it through the day. When I feel good, I like to share the happiness with those around me and I think the color yellow attracts people to my positive, happy vibe. On the complete opposite side of the spectrum is black. Unlike the color blue, this dark color makes me feel sad and depressed-- like a funeral or this dark gloomy weather we have experienced this last week. Late afternoon is the time of day when I feel most at ease. The school day is over and I have a few hours to relax before I start my homework or before I am off to soccer practice. This is my time to reflect on my day and recharge my batteries for the next phase of the day. This is also the time of day that starts the transition into the evening hours. To me it feels very calm; the hustle and bustle of the day is over and the time to start to de-stress begins.
To escape from the pressures of my life I either sleep, eat, or play softball. I sleep because whether I dream or not it is still a better feeling than certain things I experience throughout the day. When I sleep my mind goes blank I have nothing to worry about nor do I have anything to accomplish aside from relaxing. I eat because food makes me happy. Yes I know that sounds fat but food is great it’s like you can fulfill any craving you have. Finally I play softball because I can let any emotions I have built up inside of me out on the field. Whether I am hitting, pitching, fielding, or cheering I can just release all my emotions.
ReplyDeleteMy best childhood memory was probably the daycare my best friends mom had out of her house. I would go there everyday and in her den was all of our toys and where we would have nap time. Every morning at the ass crack of dawn my mom would drop me off on her way to work or class and then she would be back to pick me up around dinner time. I loved spending each and everyday playing with my best friend, what more could a kid ask for honestly.
I feel my absolute best when I am with my friends. I have gained so many new friends this year particularly Brielle, Cayla, Trey, Carlos, Scott, Lauren and more. This group of friends makes me feel so important and just knows how to make everything into a good time. I have spent the last 3 or 4 weekends with them and it has been nothing but fun. Even when I have rough things going on at home they know how to take my mind off of it and also get me away from the chaos. For all of that I love my people.
I love the sound of rain and some light thunder here and there. Whenever there is a rainy day I lay in my bed and listen to it while I drift asleep. I love at night when it is storming because it puts me to sleep faster. Occasionally I even play a sound track of stormy sounds to soothe my mind and relax me. Listening to rain is just relaxing and the aroma it brings along is gloomy yet comforting. In no way am I saying I’d rather it be rainy than sunny but there’s always room for one rainy day in the bunch.
Yellow is such a positive color. I need to start wearing more yellow because honestly it is like a mood changer. Yellow is an upbeat smiley happy color that can turn any bad day into a good one. I love the color yellow as well as the color blue. Not a dark blue but like a sky blue. I feel like those two colors are two of the most positive colors out of the bunch hene why the sky is blue and the sun is yellow! Full circle ending when it comes to your happy day. Completely opposite of the weather lately but it’s okay summer is approaching!
I feel the most at ease at night because I know I am about to do one of my favorite things...sleep. As I said earlier sleep is relaxing and helps relieve whatever stress I may have been dealing with throughout the day. It provides comfort to me because I am in a safe spot that I call my bed and I am madly in love with my bed. When I tell you I love my bed, I really love my bed.
Where do you like to go to escape from the pressures of your life? (It doesn't have to be a real place). Why THAT place?
ReplyDeleteI've never had a “happy place” or anything. It seems as if the pressures of life follow me everywhere. There's always something going on or someone doing something. I spend a lot of time in my room though, so I guess I can say here. Or maybe I'll make one of the boat we went on to spread my great-uncle’s ashes the other day. It was so peaceful, everyone was in a pretty somber mood but it wasn't exactly sad. The rocking of the boat on the water and watching the waves roll towards the shore was extremely calming to me; it was almost dark and all you could see were the little lights from the restaurants and cars along the shoreline. The ocean did as it pleased and we were simply following it.
What is your best childhood memory? Describe it in detail.
I can't decide a favorite childhood memory honestly. A pretty good one is when I got my dog from my aunt. I would always go to their house after school to play with him until my mom got home from work. One day I asked if he could “sleepover” and after that I just kept bringing him home with me until she told us we could have him. I was so happy that I got a dog I never let him out of my sight. I made sure he slept in my bed every night to make sure he was ok.
Where and when do you feel your absolute best? Why?
I feel my best when I'm around people that love me and I'm having fun. Fun is fun so it makes me happy and people that love make me feel safe and comfortable wherever I am. If there is music that I like playing somewhere then it’s x3793993929918 better.
What is the most soothing sound you can imagine?
The sound of steady rain when I'm in my room with the window open. I can hear the rain fall on the roof and splat on the leaves of the trees.
Which colors affect your mood the most? How do those colors affect it?
Lots of obnoxiously extreme bright or neon colors make me overwhelmed and kind of piss me off. I don't have a certain color that calms me down (maybe the blue of the ocean on a nice day) or makes me excited.
When during the day do you feel the most at ease? Why? What is it about that time of day that provides comfort?
Any time where I can just have a seat in some peaceful quiet and relax. That would probably be before I go to bed if everyone else is asleep and all the tv’s are off (never). Or when I'm home alone and everything is powered down or muted.
This time of year sucks. It’s basically like taking four SATs in the span of two weeks, at least that’s how my anxiety sees AP testing week. That means, it’s better if I mentally prepare my brain in advance by being as relaxed as possible. If I stress before the exams, I’ll stress during the exams so it’s important that I try my best to keep it to a minimum. Therefore, I normally escape to my room if I am feeling anxious or just need to be alone. I’ve pretty much made it my safe place; I don’t do homework in my bedroom and I don’t think about anything stressful when I’m in my room. If I’m out somewhere and start to feel off balance and grounding myself doesn’t work, I’ll imagine myself in my bed and this usually helps.
ReplyDeleteOne of my best childhood memories is seeing my mom graduate. She went to CCCC to get her RN degree (which at the time I called “Real Nurse” because I didn’t know what the ‘r’ stood for and when she was an LPN I called that a “Like Pretend Nurse”) and her graduation was held at the college. I saw a patch of dandelions as we were walking from the parking lot to the field and when I mentioned flowers to my dad his face turned a subtle red. He forgot the flowers. The graduation started in 30 minutes. The closest flower shop was 10 minutes away. So we race there and when my dad goes to pick out the flowers, all the roses looked old and gloomy so I chose this other pink flower and we ended up making it to CCCC again, but this time with a worse parking spot. As we walk to the field I see the same abundant dandelion patch and I pick a few to put with the pink bouquet. Then the ceremony was over and we went to get ice cream.
Speaking of getting ice cream, I feel my best when I’m with friends. They keep me grounded and it’s never a bad time. We could be out somewhere or just simply hanging out at someone’s house and it’s nice to be in their company. I have a group of friends that don’t make each other feel less than what they are, which is why they’re so awesome.
A little while ago I would put on soothing sounds or boring bedtime stories in order to fall asleep. The most effective sounds we’re ocean waves. I love how smooth they are and it really relaxes me.
I tend to gravitate towards very “girly” colors like the millennial pinks, lavender/ lilac, mint green as well as deeper colors like burnt orange or army green. These colors make me happier and (relating this to makeup/ shopping) I am more likely to buy something that is one of these various colors or if the packaging is an appealing color scheme, etc.
For some reason, the mornings are when I’m most anxious. However at night, I tend to be really calm and I don’t know why. I’ve heard about it being the complete opposite for other people because with the night time comes darkness and with that comes fear and paranoia, but I can normally tell how a day is going to go once I wake up. While at night, I think knowing that I’m going to go to start going to sleep puts my mind in relax mode. So in the mornings when I wake up, my brain starts up again and sometimes goes into overdrive which sometimes evokes my nervousness.
However, stress is often times inevitable. So as long as I do everything I can to help myself, what happens will happen. Just taking it one day at a time.
I have a lot of pressure on me from myself, my parents, teacher, and others as well. When it tends to get to be too much to handle,Ilike going in my car by myself and listen to music. it helps me release everything and have a little bit of serenity. Being alone when I need to be helps me think, its the one place I can truly be myself without having any filter and not have the worry of being judged.I don't have one specific memory that I can pinpoint but the best part of my childhood was definitely 4th-5th grade during softball season. My dad was my coach and although we didn’t win many games, I absolutely loved being there. Not only was I the coaches daughter but I was pretty good (for a 9 year old (i was also no Liz Briles or Aryel Arroyo but I was good to my standards)). My dad and I were closest those two years, he also didn’t have a job so we were with each other all the time. This was before I knew his faults, his mistakes, his imperfections that would later change the way I viewed him. He was my hero and I adored him. From practicing outside to going to games in the rain (they were my favorite) to everything in between, I absolutely loved it. I think it’s the reason why I love playing softball so much in the first place, with every step, my hero was by my side, holding my hand. Recently i’ve felt my best in my car with my friends. When I am I feel free, I feel like I have no responsibility and I can just do what I want without having to worry about anything. The most soothing sound to me, oddly, is thunderstorms. I love being outside during them, raining or not. it reminds me of my sister because before she left for college we would sit outside during them and talk for hours about everything. We had never been closer and will never be that close again. I will forever cherish those moments I had with her.Ithink the color yellow contributes most to my moods. It's such a bright color that when i’m in a good mood and I'm happy and cheerful, it adds to it, it helps enhance my mood. On the other hand when I'm in a bad mood, I don't want to see yellow because of how happy it is. Especially when i’m surrounded by it, it makes me more annoyed or upset usually. When I come home from school/work I usually go lay in my bed, this is the part of the day I feel most at ease. Especially if it's after work, i’d just been on my feet for ~8 hours and laying down after that feels like a huge release. Also, being alone, even if just for that short time, it gives me peace.I feel relaxed and unbothered and it helps me recharge, even if just for a little, for the rest of the day.
ReplyDeleteOne place where i like to go to escape is outside . Like anywhere where there is fresh air i like to be . I constantly feel like i can’t breathe at certain moments so it feels good to have fresh air flowing into my lungs . It reminds me that even though there are things in my life that have gone to complete shit I’m still alive. I can breathe, so everything is okay. Sometimes when i don’t want to breathe anymore feeling the wind on my face reminds me that there are all these great things in the world like wind & leaves & cute babies & even Little boys who yodel in Walmart
ReplyDeleteI honestly don’t think that i have a great childhood memory . I’m not trying to be depressing or anything but i sat here for a couple minutes and couldn’t think of anything to really share. I’ve been happy about things in my childhood but nothing really sticks out more then the other.
I honestly think i feel my absolute best when I’m sleep . I think this because i can’t mess anything up if I’m sleeping. I’m not worried about messing anything up if I’m sleeping . When i sleep it’s just peace which i love. I love the fact that we can have dreams bc it’s like I’m living in a world that my mind controls .
The most soothing sound that i can imagine is rain . I don’t know why but rain relaxes me which causes me to fall asleep and i love to sleep. Rain calms me & soothes me . I love rain . If there wasn’t a chance of me getting sick i would just sit in the rain. Which is weird i know. But sounds like a lot of fun.
Do colors really affect your mood? I’ve never really thought about it. I guess blue reminds me of water so i guess i feel pretty neutral when i see it . Green reminds me of grass which reminds me of pollen so it’s not my personal favorite anymore . Purple makes me smile . I’m not really sure why . It’s just a nice color .
I think the time of the day when I’m at ease would be at night. Bc I’m sleep . ( shocker ikr) i just feel like the rest of the day I’m always worried about something and that sucks. I’m never really at ease until I’m in bed anticipating sleep.